THE HONEYMAN ARCHIVE

HONEYMAN STATE PARK, OREGON PARKS & RECREATION DEPARTMENT (OPRD)
THE TREATMENT OF VOLUNTEERS IS NOT PERIPHERAL — BUT CENTRAL — TO INSTITUTIONAL LEGITIMACY
ESSENTIAL READING
The Hidden Problem: On the Invisibility of Unpaid Labor Abuse →
The Weight of Documentation →
The Harm That Didn't Have to Happen →
This archive is not a monument to survival. It is a demand for structural protection.
I built this because no one should endure systematic institutional abuse while serving without compensation — unpaid, unsupported, undocumented — in silence, in isolation, in fear of reprisal.
Until Oregon State Parks creates real, enforceable protections for volunteers, this archive remains open, active, and expanding. When institutions depend on unpaid labor but offer no recourse when harm occurs, they create conditions for ongoing abuse. When that abuse is named and met with silence, that silence becomes the next act of harm.
This is not about retribution. This is about systemic integrity.
It is here so others don't get erased.
It is here so the next whistleblower isn't isolated.
It is here because someone has to hold the line.
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Day Zero of the Archive

Date: October 10, 2024 Location: Loeb State Park, Southern Oregon Coast Medium: Receipt, paid in cash Signal Type: Threshold Artifact You think it will be a place. A stopover. A safe point. A break in the sequence of motion. But it is not ...

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KEY INDIVIDUALS

HONEYMAN STATE PARK
OREGON PARKS & RECREATION DEPARTMENT (OPRD)
These are the central figures referenced throughout this archive —
each played a distinct role in the events that unfolded
at Honeyman State Park and within Oregon State Parks as a whole.

  • KATI BAKER

    Park Supervisor
    Honeyman State Park
    The architect of early distortion. After a brief exchange about power outage perception, she withdrew, delegating discomfort through silence and seeding a lasting narrative of dismissal.

  • RYAN WARREN

    Park Manager
    Honeyman State Park
    The primary enforcer of coercive tactics — initiated multiple confrontations, including the recorded March 5 meeting and a surprise dismissal phone call. His leadership masked control as professionalism.

  • ALLISON WATSON

    Engagement Programs Manager
    Oregon Parks & Recreation Department
    Conducted the post-dismissal call. Framed reflective truth as misconduct. Refused to acknowledge documented abuse, and issued the permanent dismissal without responding to direct concerns.
LISA SUMPTION
Director
Oregon Parks & Recreation Department
  • Received documentation of systematic volunteer abuse and responded with procedural language that acknowledged concerns while committing to no specific accountability measures.
  • By directing recorded misconduct into internal "appropriate channels," she maintained institutional protection of those implicated in documented misconduct while appearing responsive to external pressure.
Read the Open Letter to Director Sumption →

A NOTE ABOUT ETHICS

I thought ethics were the rulebook.
I approached Oregon State Parks believing that basic human decency, professional accountability, and institutional integrity were shared values — the foundation we all operated from. I assumed that documenting misconduct would lead to correction, that truth-telling would be welcomed, that maintaining ethical boundaries was not just acceptable but expected.
I was wrong.
What I discovered instead was an institution where ethical consistency is viewed as inflexibility, where accountability requests are treated as attacks, where documentation of misconduct becomes more problematic than the misconduct itself. A system so dependent on people's willingness to absorb harm quietly, to fragment under pressure, to prioritize institutional comfort over ethical clarity, that basic integrity becomes revolutionary.
This archive exists because I maintained what should have been unremarkable standards: I documented interactions, I communicated clearly, I held boundaries, I expected good faith responses to legitimate concerns. These simple practices — which should be institutional norms — made me what they considered an impossible adversary.
Not because I was unreasonable. Not because I was vindictive. Not because I operated outside ethical guidelines.
But because I refused to abandon them.
This archive documents what happens when someone approaches institutional dysfunction with uncompromising ethical clarity. It reveals how systems protect themselves by targeting those who witness their failures. It shows what institutional retaliation looks like when deployed against someone whose only "weapon" is documented truth.
This is not a story about one problematic park or a few bad employees. This is a story about what modern institutions have become when basic human decency is perceived as an existential threat to their operations.
I thought ethics were the rulebook.
They should be.
The archive that follows is proof that they're not — and testimony to what happens when someone refuses to accept that corruption as normal.

EXECUTIVE SUMMARY

In early 2025, I served as an unpaid volunteer at Honeyman State Park in Oregon. What began as a routine volunteer assignment became two months of systematic psychological harassment, coercive tactics, and institutional retaliation — all documented with audio and video evidence.

HOW IT STARTED

My second week there, I sent a respectful text to Park Supervisor Kati Baker about a power outage, noting that guests would perceive me as responsible for resolving it. Her dismissive response led me to share that her tone made me feel small. This single exchange became the pretext for everything that followed.

THE ESCALATION

What should have been a minor communication issue became a sustained campaign of psychological pressure:
  • The Same Day: Park Manager Ryan Warren confronted me alone, cataloguing every minor mistake from my first week as a new volunteer.
  • February: Systematic undermining of my supervisor relationships and isolation from normal support systems, requiring me to document it with the "Trust" email.
  • March 5: Orchestrated meeting where I was told to "chew glass and swallow it" and that I would never be given the benefit of the doubt. I recorded the entire meeting.
  • March 10: Engagement Programs Manager Allison Watson called about my March 5 recording, informing me I was "acting as an agent of the state" and establishing notification requirements for future recordings — the tone was procedural, but it still felt intimidating. We had never spoken before.
  • That Same Day: In a follow-up call I initiated, and deliberately did not record so she would feel more comfortable, I tried to explain why I had recorded the meeting, hoping she would assist me. She told me to get through my time, that every park is different.
  • March 18: An unidentified man approached me to conduct covert assessment while I worked alone, interrogating me about leadership treatment under cover of "IT documentation." I immediately documented it with Kati.
  • March 24: Immediate dismissal six days before scheduled completion, using fabricated pretenses with no formal documentation.
  • March 26: Permanent dismissal from all Oregon State Parks volunteer programs, explicitly citing my public speech about the abuse as the reason.

THE COERCIVE MEETING

On March 5, Ryan Warren and Kati Baker summoned me to a public picnic table for over an hour of psychological pressure designed to force my resignation. The entire meeting was recorded.
Key moments include:
  • Ryan telling me to "chew glass and swallow it" as leadership advice.
  • Admission that I was never given the benefit of the doubt from day one.
  • Repeated suggestions that I should "just leave" if uncomfortable.
  • Reframing of normal communication as threatening behavior.
  • Clear weaponization of my identity.
  • Absolute refusal to engage in any substantive claims.

THE SETUP

Six days before my removal, following Allison's failed attempt to eliminate recorded evidence through legal intimidation, an unidentified man with no uniform or identification approached me while I was working alone. He interrogated me with personal questions about leadership treatment, then disappeared. When I reported this, it was hastily explained as "IT photo documentation" — yet no photos were ever produced.

THE DISMISSAL

With less than one week remaining in my assignment, Ryan Warren called requesting another meeting. When I asked why, he became agitated and dismissed me over the phone — using a homeless man's lost journal as pretext, claiming I had made inappropriate comments about park staff. He arrived at my RV an hour later to collect keys and site documents, admitting on camera that no formal documentation existed for my removal.
Shortly after, Engagement Programs Manager Allison Watson issued a formal dismissal letter. In it, she explicitly stated that my public comments about my experience — not misconduct or behavior at the park — were the reason for my removal, citing that my statements "were not in line with expectations set forth in the agreement."
This admission confirmed what the department had previously tried to obscure: that I was not removed for what I did, but for speaking about what was done to me. Her letter constitutes a written acknowledgment of retaliatory dismissal based on protected speech, transforming this case from a personnel dispute into institutional evidence.

THE INSTITUTIONAL RESPONSE

When I documented this treatment through internal channels, I was met with escalation rather than accountability:
  • Regional Level: Engagement Programs Manager Allison Watson reframed documented abuse as my behavioral problems.
  • State Level: Director Lisa Sumption received detailed evidence and responded with procedural language that acknowledged concerns while committing to no specific accountability measures.
  • Final Result: Permanent dismissal from all Oregon State Parks volunteer programs.

THE EVIDENCE

This archive contains:
  • 60+ minutes of recorded meetings showing systematic psychological pressure.
  • Video documentation of dismissal without cause or paperwork.
  • Email correspondence revealing coordinated campaigns against me.
  • Phone call recordings exposing institutional cover-up tactics.

WHY THIS MATTERS

This was not a misunderstanding or personality conflict. This was systematic institutional abuse executed against someone serving without compensation. The evidence shows a coordinated effort to psychologically break a volunteer who refused to fragment under pressure, followed by institutional protection of the abusers and punishment of the victim.
The most direct confirmation of this came from inside the system itself. In her dismissal letter, Engagement Programs Manager Allison Watson explicitly stated that I was being removed not for misconduct, but for speaking publicly about what happened. In doing so, she converted what the agency might have passed off as misunderstanding into a written acknowledgment of retaliatory dismissal. It is rare that institutions name themselves so clearly. When they do, it matters.
This case is not just about one volunteer. It is about whether Oregon State Parks tolerates — or encourages — the use of coercive tactics against those who speak with clarity about internal harm. It is about whether the system protects its image, or its people.

THE PROOF IT'S INSTITUTIONAL

Following my dismissal from Oregon State Parks, I began volunteering with another agency. For six months, I have served without incident, received positive feedback, and maintained excellent working relationships. This demonstrates that the problems at Honeyman were cultural and institutional, not personal or behavioral.
The question is not whether this happened — the recordings make that undeniable. The question is whether Oregon State Parks will hold itself accountable for systematic abuse of volunteers, or continue protecting those who execute it.

THE STORY OF HONEYMAN

WHAT THEY DID. WHAT I SAW. WHAT I CARRIED.
I arrived at Honeyman State Park not to fill a shift, but to hold a field —
a sovereign man in alignment, in service, not to authority, but to coherence.
I came prepared. I came committed. I came clean.
And from the moment I showed up fully — visibly queer, pierced, calm, integrated —
they didn’t know what to do with me.

THE FIRST FRACTURE

It began with a power outage.
I texted Kati, the park supervisor, early in the morning —
clear, respectful, naming the perception issue with guests.
She responded dismissively.
I followed up, naming how her tone made me feel.
Not as a complaint — as a human reflection.
That should have been a moment of connection.
Instead, it marked me.
From that day forward, the tone of the park shifted.
Ryan, the park manager, came into the Welcome Center —
not with curiosity, but with rehearsed authority.
He unearthed first-week errors, presented them like a case file.
It wasn’t feedback.
It was pretext.
My supervisor, Logan, vanished — conveniently unavailable.
Leaving me to navigate power dynamics as a brand new volunteer.
Then reappeared only once I had navigated the situation on my own —
this would become a pattern.
I stayed calm. I stayed kind.
I asked for a reset.
They said yes —
but the narrative was already seeded.
And they would return to it again and again,
Over the next two months.

DISTORTION AS POLICY

I applied for a job at Honeyman —
not out of desperation, but because I liked the park, the rhythm, the work.
That application was never acknowledged.
Instead, I was met with awkward silence, thin smiles, retreating contact.
So I withdrew the application, but even this got met with suspicion.
So when I shared my truth —
my background, my journey, my sacrifices —
Logan didn’t receive it.
Instead, he tried to manage my perception.
And would later weaponize it.
And then disappear again.
And then they manufactured a situation —
When I asked to be trained by a certain park ranger, to prevent distortion,
Logan said yes, but then didn't follow through.
They wanted to see me fail.
They wanted me to feel uncomfortable.
They wanted me to leave.
I wrote him the trust email —
clear, principled, accountable.
Instead of responding directly,
they convened a meeting.

THE ORCHESTRATED CONFRONTATION

Ryan and Kati summoned me to the day-use area.
A picnic table, a public setting, the illusion of calm.
What followed was a scripted performance of coercion.
For over an hour...
They framed my emails as threats.
They pathologized my clarity as "unprofessional."
They refused to offer specifics, yet insisted I was a problem.
They demanded I extend positive intent —
even as they openly admitted —
they'd never once offered me the benefit of the doubt.
Ryan told me I’d need to "chew glass" —
and framed it as leadership wisdom.
But what he meant was submit.
I recorded the meeting —
because I already knew what was coming.

THE FINAL MOVE

Weeks passed. I kept working. Professionally. Precisely.
No infractions. No escalation.
But they couldn’t leave me intact.
Ryan called, days before I was scheduled to leave.
He wanted another meeting.
When I asked why, he said I was "still" being a problem.
Still.
Not because of my actions — but because of my presence.
Because I had not fractured.
I named it for what it was —
I told him he was a bully.
and in that moment, the performance unraveled.
He came to my RV.
Dismissed me without paperwork.
Accepted my keys with a reasonable tone,
masking deliberate erasure as protocol.
That was their final maneuver:
Ensure I did not leave on my own terms.
Ensure I carried a mark.
Ensure the narrative stayed theirs.
But I had already built the archive.

WHAT THEY DID

They misread my coherence as confrontation.
They punished integrity because it disrupted their comfort.
They used silence as strategy.
Tone as weapon.
Policy as shield.
They created an environment where depth was reframed as danger.
Where presence was unwelcome unless it could be controlled.
Where authenticity was pathologized — and then expelled.
This was not incompetence.
This was not miscommunication.
This was institutional harm, deliberately executed by people who chose
performance over presence,
control over contact,
narrative over truth.

WHAT I DID

I held my shape.
I named the distortions.
I documented everything.
I built this record.
And now, it stands —
not as retribution,
but as mirror.
To anyone reading this — inside or outside the institution:
This is what it looks like when coherence survives collapse.
This is what it sounds like when the signal outlasts the noise.
I am still here.
And the archive speaks.

HOW IT STARTED

FEBRUARY 9, 2025 — THE MOMENT SHE SAW ME
This email marked the pivot from a minor operational issue into a full-scale campaign of escalation. I sent it for two reasons:
  • To Set a Boundary
    I made it clear that dismissive responses were not acceptable. I had reached out in good faith about handling guest concerns during a power outage, and the response I received left me feeling minimized. In this message, I asserted — calmly but firmly — that my role deserved respect and that my questions were valid.
  • To Insist on Clarity
    My questions weren’t abstract. As a volunteer host positioned directly across from the gate, I was the first point of contact for frustrated guests during overnight outages. I needed to know: Who should I call in off-hours? How do I get accurate updates? What information can I share with guests to keep them reassured? These are basic operational needs, and without answers, I was left exposed — responsible to the public, but unsupported by leadership.
By drawing this line — respect for my role, and clear answers for performing it effectively — I disrupted an unspoken norm: that volunteers should quietly accept whatever treatment they receive, even when it undermines their ability to do the work.
Instead of responding with clarity or collaboration, leadership escalated. From this point forward, I was treated not as someone trying to serve responsibly, but as a problem to be neutralized. This email is therefore the hinge of the entire story: a good-faith request for guidance and respect that revealed the organization’s unwillingness to provide either.
Everything that followed — humiliation, intimidation, surveillance, dismissal — was a reaction not to misconduct, but to the simple act of asserting boundaries and insisting on answers that mattered.
This single incident — my request for clarity and respect — was repeatedly brought up as justification for later treatment. It resurfaced in conversations and meetings long after the fact, including the orchestrated day-use area meeting and the call with Allison Watson. What should have been a straightforward exchange about utility protocols became the foundation of the narrative used against me.
This started everything.

📝 Letter to Park Supervisor Kati Baker

Hi Kati,
I wanted to follow up on our exchange about the H Loop power outage. When I choose my sites as a volunteer host, I'm always conscious of what each position means for guest interaction. Being across from the gate means being a natural point of contact, especially during overnight issues.
I'm a systems thinker by nature and profession. When I reached out at 6 AM, after interacting with concerned guests since 3 AM, I was seeking to understand how to best serve within this system. Having clear protocols helps me provide better service, especially during situations like yesterday's water outage where guests became agitated.
I hesitated to contact you at that hour because I wasn’t sure if other volunteers had already done so or if that was the correct protocol. And when I did reach out, the response I received made me feel small — like my concern wasn’t valid, when in reality, I was simply trying to do my job well. That hesitation is something I shouldn’t have to feel when I’m only seeking to be as effective as possible in a role that ultimately serves both guests and the park.
I’m still seeking clarity on:
1. Who to contact during off-hours utility issues
2. How status updates are communicated so that volunteers and staff can access the same information
3. What specific details I should provide to guests to ensure they feel informed
I choose to be here because I care about making these parks work well for everyone. I want to be a valuable resource, but I also need to know my role is respected. Having clearer guidance on these points would help me serve both guests and staff more effectively.
Additionally, I see an opportunity to improve how real-time updates are shared across teams. If there’s interest, I’d be happy to discuss a simple system for tracking and communicating outages, reducing redundant contacts while keeping everyone better informed.
Best,
Sam

LOGAN

MARCH 2, 2025 — THE MOMENT TRUST WAS BROKEN
Logan was my direct supervisor. From the beginning, we formed something like a friendship. I saw in him a mix of depth and integrity, sometimes in quiet tension with the institution he served. I chose to make space for that. What I didn’t see — or didn’t want to — was that his integrity is compartmentalized.
Logan participated in many of the dynamics detailed in this archive, though his role was tertiary — directives seeded by Ryan and Kati. When it became clear they were actively sabotaging my trajectory, I acted to protect myself. I wrote the "Trust" email to sever a dynamic that had become harmful.
This letter requires context — context I would have preferred to leave private. I navigated this relationship with care. That care was later used against me.
During the March 5 meeting, Ryan said — with mocking tone — that I "thought I had a future with Logan." It was absurd. I laughed. But I understood the insinuation. It was an accusation of inappropriate feelings — a weaponization of my sexuality, and a distortion of ordinary human emotion. And I’m nearly certain it only entered the narrative with Logan’s consent.
He also disclosed vulnerable, personal information I shared with him in trust — information later used by Allison Watson to pathologize my character during dismissal proceedings.
That is not just unethical. It is betrayal.
But I will not center their distortions.
For the record: nothing inappropriate ever happened between us. He was simply someone I trusted — and someone I now understand I should not have.
I’ve chosen not to center him — not because his actions were minor, but because they were embedded in proximity and trust. That dynamic requires precision, not amplification.
I think it deserves consequences — but perhaps private ones. He’s a younger ranger, in a toxic, fragmented environment. That’s not an excuse. But it is part of the system he’s inside.
When Logan lied to me — and there’s no other word for it — I saw the writing on the wall. They were creating conditions they hoped would lead to my removal.
That moment made clear: Logan was acting under instruction from people who were persistently unethical. And yet, in a different environment — with support, with reflection, and without distortion — I still believe Logan could thrive.

📝 The "Trust" Email — Letter to Volunteer Coordinator Logan

Logan,
I don’t trust you, and that’s because your actions have given me no reason to.
When I confided in you about the situation with Kati, you escalated it instead of protecting me. Then you disappeared.
When I applied for a job here, you distanced yourself again. The moment I withdrew my application, you reappeared — spending ninety minutes talking about yourself.
When I finally opened up to you about why I’m here, what I sacrificed to be here, and why this matters to me, you responded by trying to manage my perception instead of actually listening.
And then? You distanced yourself again.
When I warned you — privately — to prevent a repeat of the Kati situation, you assured me Leaf would train me. That didn’t happen.
At every critical moment, you have failed to act with integrity.
At every opportunity to lead, you have instead chosen avoidance.
I will continue to do my job professionally for the next month.
You will ensure that my contributions are recognized appropriately in your system.
I will not allow the dysfunction here to interfere with my larger trajectory.
If there is any pushback on this, understand that I am fully prepared for it.
Sam

THE HONEYMAN DAY-USE AREA MEETING

MARCH 5, 2025 — THE MOMENT THEY TRIED TO BREAK ME
I was summoned to a picnic table tucked into the public quiet of Honeyman’s day-use area —
a location chosen not for privacy,
but for plausible deniability.
Ryan and Kati sat across from me, postured in calm —
but it was a calm shaped by performance, not principle.
The tone shifted often. Ryan’s voice grew sharp, his volume raised.
His interruptions came fast, his control slipping each time I didn’t break.
Kati stepped in when Ryan faltered, using emotional framing to try to destabilize me.
What followed was not a meeting.
It was a controlled confrontation —
over an hour of narrative distortion,
implied threat,
and institutional performance.
Not to understand.
Not to repair.
But to coerce —
just enough destabilization,
just enough psychological pressure,
to make my continued presence untenable.
🔊 Full Recording — March 5 Meeting with Ryan Warren & Kati Baker
This recording was captured in a public setting, conducted by public employees,
involving matters of consequence to my name and trajectory.
There was no privacy notice. No warning. No reason to withhold witness.
The law can debate its admissibility. But I assert its necessity.

WHY THIS WAS PRESERVED

Because what happened that day was not a misunderstanding.
It was deliberate —
institutional harm executed under the cover of politeness,
procedural language used as camouflage for psychological coercion.
This recording is not shared to punish.
It is shared because erasure is what they counted on.
It is shared because systems like this survive through unrecorded harm —
through meetings with no witnesses, just enough tone control to call it "professional."
But if you listen closely, you’ll hear what they never wanted preserved:
Defensiveness when confronted with truth.
Dismissiveness when integrity is named.
A rising voice when narrative control slips.
This is not unique to Honeyman, or to Oregon State Parks as a whole.
This is how institutional harm works:
calmly, vaguely, behind picnic tables — until the script is interrupted.
Now, you can hear it for yourself.

THE UNIDENTIFIED MAN

MARCH 18, 2025 — THE MOMENT THEY TRIED TO FRAME ME
Six days before my removal from Honeyman State Park, I encountered something that still defies reasonable explanation.
I was alone at the yurts, mid-clean, with all doors propped open as part of my routine. The rangers were away at a regional training event. It was quiet, methodical work — the kind I had come to appreciate.
A man approached. No uniform. No identification. No introduction.
He claimed to be with the park service and said he was photographing the yurts for documentation — while they were dirty, partially cleaned, completely exposed. Then, without transition, he began pressing me with direct, personal questions about my experience at the park, how I was being treated, whether leadership was treating me well.
This was not casual conversation. It was interrogation. Calculated, pressured, intimate. When I didn't respond as expected, he stepped closer, reframed the questions, increased the psychological pressure.
I recognized what was happening in real time. This was a probe — designed to elicit complaints, create admissible statements, or provoke a reaction that could be used to justify my removal.
I documented the encounter immediately with Kati, my supervisor. Her response was swift: he was "from I.T." taking photos for site documentation. She praised how I had "handled it."
Within days, I was removed from my position using a homeless man's journal as pretext.
Five months after my permanent dismissal from the Oregon State Parks volunteer program, I sent the following letter to Director Lisa Sumption. I had given the institution multiple opportunities to address documented harm through internal channels. All had been met with silence.
This letter represents the moment I moved from private accountability to institutional pressure. It documents not just the encounter with the unidentified operative, but the broader pattern of covert tactics, systematic retaliation, and institutional protection of misconduct.
The response to this letter would determine whether Oregon State Parks was capable of ethical leadership — or whether external accountability would become necessary.
This letter has gone unanswered.

📝 Letter to Director Lisa Sumption — August 16, 2025

Correction: This encounter took place on March 18, not March 20, making it six days before my removal.
Lisa,
Four days before I was removed from Honeyman, a man approached me while I was cleaning the yurts.
He was not in uniform. He offered no name. He carried no identification.
He said he was with the park service and that he was taking photos of the yurts — while they were still dirty, mid-clean, with all doors propped open.
Then, without transition, he pressed me — hard and fast — with direct personal questions:
How do you like the park?
How are you being treated here?
Is the leadership treating you well?
This was not casual.
It was not polite.
It was a calculated psychological pressure test, delivered by a stranger while I was isolated and working. And while all the rangers were away for a regional event.
I recognized it in real time. It was disorienting — because it was meant to be. It didn’t read like routine oversight. It read like a probe. It read like aggression. When I didn’t answer, he asked again — reframed the question, stepped in closer. It was intimate. And it was forced.
I asked Kati about it because I wanted it documented (see attached thread). I understood what this was. She had an immediate justification: he was "from I.T." taking photos for site documentation. She praised how I "handled it."
That wasn’t a reassurance. That was a confirmation that I’d been observed and evaluated — and that the probe had failed to elicit the intended response.
Let’s name what this was:
There is no public record of these photos ever being used.
There is no traceable operational need for unannounced photo capture during an active clean.
There was no follow-up, no supervisor debrief, no procedural accountability.
Just Kati — tying off the thread as quickly as possible.
It was a setup. It failed.
And within DAYS, I was removed from my role — using a homeless man’s journal as pretext.
The irony is grotesque.
So I’ll ask directly:
Do those photos exist?
Were they ever published?
Was this encounter logged anywhere in your internal systems?
Because if not, you now have something far worse than negligence.
You have a covert institutional tactic used against a volunteer — followed by a pattern of containment and silence.
Something I endured for two months. I just wanted to get through my time there so I could move onto the other parks in my trajectory. Kati knew that. Ryan knew that. And that's why they were trying so hard to frame me as a problem. It's why they removed me when I only had ONE SHIFT LEFT.
This is what Kati did to someone who was doing his job.
Unpaid. Alone. Professional.
And this is what Allison did in response: nothing.
No inquiry. No accountability. Just silence.
That silence is now part of the record.
And so is this message.
You’ve left the same people in charge at your flagship campground — even after direct, documented, and now expanded evidence of unethical conduct.
What happened at Honeyman is not behind you.
It is with you now.
And every day you choose not to act becomes part of the breach.
I know you don't want to hear from me. I know the institutional reflex to frame this as obsession. This is not that. I need you to be an ethical leader.
Find a way.
—Sam
https://rswfire.com/honeyman
From: Robert Samuel White <rsw@rswfire.com>
Sent: Monday, May 26, 2025 7:08:05 PM
To: WATSON Allison * OPRD <allison.watson@oprd.oregon.gov>
Subject: For the Record - March 20 Field Encounter
Allison,
This email chain may appear mundane on the surface.
It is not.
What it documents is the outer shell of an orchestrated event — a baited encounter that I now know, without doubt, was sent by Kati.
A man appeared while I was cleaning. No identification. No uniform.
He claimed to be taking photos of the yurts — which were still dirty, mid-clean, doors propped open. No one does that. That was the first tell.
He confronted me immediately with invasive, personal questions — not park-related, not procedural.
When I didn’t engage, he turned and left quickly.
Later, Kati confirmed he was "with IT" and praised how I "handled it."
That wasn’t a compliment. It was a data point. A probe that failed.
This wasn’t routine.
It was covert assessment, masked as operations.
And I see now what it was meant to be:
A pretext. A setup.
An attempt to provoke a misstep that could justify my removal.
It didn’t work. I didn’t take the bait.
This email chain remains — a quiet record of that moment.
You may want to review it with clearer eyes.
Because what happened at that park is larger than policy.
It speaks to the architecture of how authenticity is policed, how nonconformity is treated as threat, and how systems recruit silence to cover their own fractures.
I am not asking for response.
I am not seeking closure.
But I will not let distortion have the last word.
This message is not about me.
It is about what your park service has become.
—Sam
rswfire.com
From: Robert Samuel White <rsw@rswfire.com>
Sent: Thursday, March 20, 2025 3:48:24 PM
To: Baker Kati * OPRD <Kati.BAKER@oprd.oregon.gov>
Subject: Re: Question About Unidentified Visitor
Thanks, Kati. Hope it's not a problem he took the photos before I'd cleaned them. All three of my sites were in the little alcove so I had all three open at the same time while I moved around all three doing my different tasks. Like, I had the sanitizer going in all three whole I blowed the sites, etc. The trash cans were propping all the doors open. I'd want the photos to look nice of course!
From: Baker Kati * OPRD <Kati.BAKER@oprd.oregon.gov>
Sent: Thursday, March 20, 2025 3:43:44 PM
To: Robert Samuel White <rsw@rswfire.com>
Subject: RE: Question About Unidentified Visitor
Sam,
Just wanted to let you know I did reach out to the I.T. employee who is spearheading the site photo updates and it was indeed them who was out getting photos of yurts in A loop 😊
Have a great afternoon!
From: Robert Samuel White <rsw@rswfire.com>
Sent: Tuesday, March 18, 2025 5:35 PM
To: Baker Kati * OPRD <Kati.BAKER@oprd.oregon.gov>
Subject: Re: Question About Unidentified Visitor
Thanks for confirming!
From: Baker Kati * OPRD <Kati.BAKER@oprd.oregon.gov>
Sent: Tuesday, March 18, 2025 5:31:49 PM
To: Robert Samuel White <rsw@rswfire.com>
Subject: Re: Question About Unidentified Visitor
Hi Sam,
We have had some staff from I.T. working on getting updated photos of sites all over the state. I think you handled it wonderfully asking if they had any other questions. It’s not unusual for folks to want to take a look inside especially if they haven’t seen a yurt before. I can follow up with folks in I.T. to see if anyone was out today :)
-Kati
From: Robert Samuel White <rsw@rswfire.com>
Sent: Tuesday, March 18, 2025 4:35 PM
To: Baker Kati * OPRD <kati.baker@oprd.oregon.gov>
Subject: Question About Unidentified Visitor
Hi Kati,
I wanted to check in about something from today.
While I was working, a man showed up, said he was with the park service, and started taking photos of the yurts while they were still dirty, since I was in the process of cleaning them. I engaged him briefly — asked if he had any questions—but the interaction felt a little off.
He didn’t introduce himself by name, wasn’t in uniform, and had no visible identification. He only said he was with the park service and that they “needed photos of some of them still.” Then he started asking me questions — how I like the park, how I’m being treated here. It stood out, especially with the timing, since all the rangers were away for meetings.
Was this an official visit that you're aware of? If so, no problem — just seemed a bit odd, and I wasn’t sure if I should have handled it differently. If not, I wanted to flag it in case it’s something to be aware of. Let me know if you have any insight.
Thanks,
Sam

THE FINAL HOURS

MARCH 24, 2025 — THE MOMENT THE MASK DROPPED
This video was recorded less than an hour after I was dismissed
from Honeyman State Park
by Park Manager Ryan Warren —
without paperwork, without cause, and without warning.
For nearly two months, I held my role with integrity —
despite being undermined, isolated, and misrepresented.
But on this day, with just a few days left before my scheduled transfer to another park,
I was suddenly expelled —
with nowhere else to go.
I made this video not as a performance —
but out of necessity.
Throughout my time volunteering, I had been careful not to blur the line between my work and my public platform.
My audience didn’t know what was happening behind the scenes —
because I hadn’t shared it.
But when the rupture came, and I was left without support, I knew I had to speak —
honestly, fully, and on record.
This was the first time I told the whole story.
In the midst of the rupture, while enduring a major shock to my system in real time.
It was a call for support —
and an act of survival.
The video begins with a full account of what had unfolded over the past two months —
including the original power-outage text,
the controversy around my job application,
the orchestrated confrontation at the picnic table,
and the final phone call that signaled my removal.
It ends with a direct recording of Ryan taking my keys,
stating clearly that no paperwork exists for my dismissal,
and confirming that I was being given 24 hours to vacate.
This was not procedure.
It was erasure disguised as professionalism.
It was punishment delivered without evidence.
And it was a severing designed to go undocumented —
until I documented it.
🔊 Watch the Full Video — The Final Hours at Honeyman

That beeping you hear?
It’s not background noise.
It’s my blood pressure monitor —
warning me I was in a physiological state of distress.
And it didn’t stop for hours.

CALL WITH ALLISON WATSON

MARCH 25, 2025 — THE MOMENT THEY TRIED TO ERASE ME
This wasn’t a conversation. It was a containment protocol.
One day after my dismissal from Honeyman —
and one day before my entire volunteer role was terminated —
I received a phone call from Allison Watson, Volunteer Engagement Coordinator for Oregon State Parks.
I recorded the call for documentation and clarity.
This call revealed the coordinated nature of my removal. Questions and framing that echoed the March 5 meeting. Personal information shared in confidence with Logan now weaponized as "concerning behavior." Each response I gave was filtered through a predetermined narrative of problematic conduct.
What you’ll hear is not a leader showing up in presence.
It is institutional posture cloaked in empathy — a soft tone used to reroute accountability,
a performance that frames legitimacy as disruption.
In this call, you will hear:
  • Vague, unverifiable third-party reports used to justify my removal.
  • Reflective statements reframed as misconduct.
  • Complete refusal to engage the March 5 coercion meeting.
  • A poem treated as a behavioral issue.
  • Empathy used not to connect — but to contain.
That is who Allison Watson revealed herself to be at OPRD.
And this from someone who is or was the Belonging, Equity & Engagement Coordinator
— at Washington State University.
The audio is clear. The subtext is clearer. This is what it sounds like when a system
pretends to listen — while making sure nothing changes.
🔊 Full Recording — March 25 Call with Allison Watson

That first breath you hear at the start?
It was me centering. I knew I was stepping into distortion —
and I held my clarity anyway.

LETTER TO ALLISON WATSON

MARCH 27, 2025 — THE LETTER THEY COULD NOT METABOLIZE
This letter was sent to Allison Watson the evening before I was permanently dismissed from the Oregon State Parks volunteer program.
It was one of the most direct, honest, and measured attempts to name harm and restore clarity.
It was never acknowledged. It was not referenced in the dismissal.
And to this day, it has never been answered.
🎥 Watch the Reading
I recorded this on March 27 — after the final dismissal.
I was calm. Grounded. Documenting what leadership refused to hold.

📝 The Letter Allison Watson Ignored

Hi Allison,
Thank you again for taking the time to speak with me. I’ve reflected on our conversation and want to offer some additional context for the record—both to clarify key points and to express concern about how some of what I shared may be interpreted.
Throughout our conversation, I sensed a familiar pattern—where thoughtful, human interactions were being reframed post hoc as “inappropriate” or “concerning.” That reframing is not new to me. I experienced it often during my time at Honeyman, and it appeared again during our call. I want to be transparent about what I witnessed, and how it continues to shape my understanding of the institutional dynamics at play.
Some moments I feel are important to emphasize:
  • Ryan telling me to "eat glass" during our March 5 meeting was not a miscommunication—it was inappropriate and aggressive. What I did not mention in the call, but now want to add, is that he used this same phrase in the Welcome Center the very first time he confronted me. That makes it a pattern. I have reason to believe this is not an isolated incident.
  • At the end of that March 5 meeting, Ryan spent five minutes repeating that “I could just leave” if I felt uncomfortable. That wasn’t support—it was pressure. The interaction felt coercive and deeply unprofessional. And you can hear it clearly in his tone.
  • Logan’s behavior, including doing stretches in front of me during a long shift at the Welcome Center, created discomfort and blurred boundaries. As a new volunteer, I didn’t know how to respond appropriately to a situation where I felt my professionalism was being tested by someone in a position of authority.
  • Logan also told me that Ranger Leaf would train me, a commitment he never followed through on—Leaf had no knowledge of it. That breach was the final breakdown of trust in what was already a fragile dynamic.
  • Ryan admitted in our meeting that he never gave me the benefit of the doubt, beginning with my initial interaction with Kati. That admission confirms the feeling I carried throughout my time at Honeyman: that I was being judged through a fixed lens, regardless of my conduct.
  • The journal incident was misrepresented. My comment to the ranger assistant—"not all rangers are helpful"—was not a criticism of staff. It was an appeal to ensure the journal was not ignored in the lost and found. As someone who has been homeless, I know the emotional significance of a journal, and I was simply asking that extra care be taken.
  • The issue of guest perception was related to my early text message to Kati when the power went out. My statement that “I own this problem in the eyes of guests” was not a misunderstanding of my role. It was an accurate reflection of how guests see park hosts—as the first point of contact. My message was about optics, not blame or misalignment.
The common thread in all of this, and what I believe is the real issue, is how I’ve held leadership accountable in writing. The primary concern Ryan raised in that March 5 meeting was not my behavior—it was my emails. The vast majority of that meeting centered on my written communication, which I’ve always approached with clarity and intent. The discomfort, in my view, stemmed not from what I said—but from the fact that I said it in a format that created a record. This is an undeniable pattern that strikes at the heart of accountability and transparency.
Additionally, I want to acknowledge something I did not bring up on the call: I am aware of at least three other volunteers who have had similar challenges with Ryan. His behavior is not isolated. His approach to volunteers appears to follow a consistent pattern. I raise this not to accuse, but to suggest that what I experienced fits into a broader pattern that may be worth further attention.
I’m not sharing this to escalate or attack, but to ensure that the story doesn’t get flattened into something it never was. I’ve remained calm, communicative, and reflective throughout my time in this program. I’ve adapted, learned, and tried to contribute with sincerity and care. If there are aspects of my communication style that feel different, that is not a threat—it’s a strength. And it should not be weaponized to create distance or distrust.
All I ask is that this be viewed with honesty and fairness. I am not asking for special treatment—just integrity in how this is held and assessed.
The integrity of any volunteer program depends not only on the contributions of its volunteers—but on the willingness of leadership to be accountable when trust is compromised.
Please include this message in my file as part of the ongoing review.
Warm Regards,
Sam White

PERMANENT DISMISSAL

MARCH 27, 2025 — THE DOCUMENT THAT GAVE THEM AWAY
This was my first attempt at institutional belonging. They didn't just harm a volunteer — they corrupted someone's introduction to civic participation. The betrayal I had to metabolize operates at the level of citizenship itself. That is a stain they will never be able to wash off.
It’s important to be precise about the sequence.
Ryan dismissed me from Honeyman on March 24. That dismissal came suddenly, without paperwork, and without cause — documented on video.
Only after that rupture, once Ryan had already dismissed me without paperwork or cause, did I make a video describing my experience. It wasn’t performance — it was necessity. I had been ordered to vacate the park, and I needed financial support to comply with that demand. Speaking publicly was how I ensured I could leave safely, with fuel, food, and stability intact.
The video wasn’t provocation. It was survival. It was the act of telling the truth, not to attack the system, but to explain to my own community what had just happened — and to ask for help in meeting the consequences they imposed.
That necessity — the very thing they created by expelling me — became the justification for expelling me again, permanently.
Days later, that act of truth-telling became the justification for my permanent dismissal from all Oregon State Parks volunteer programs.
Allison Watson sent me a formal email and letter. The language was vague and polished, but the fingerprint is unmistakable:
"While you are able to share your opinion, perspective, and experience as an individual with the public, the public comments made about staff regarding your volunteer service, were not in line with expectations set forth in the agreement."
This was not about conduct at the park.
This was not about my work — which had been praised.
This was about the act of speaking.
I was removed from Honeyman for refusing to fracture.
I was removed from the program for refusing to stay silent.
The irony is brutal:
I documented my dismissal.
And they dismissed me again for documenting it.
This letter is proof.
It ties my permanent exclusion not to behavior on duty, but to public witness afterward.
It is a written acknowledgment that Oregon State Parks punishes whistleblowing — not misconduct.

📝 Dismissal Email from Allison Watson

Hello Sam,
After reviewing the dismissal as a park host from Jessie M. Honeyman State Park, your service, and communications with and about OPRD these past three months, we’ve identified that this volunteer relationship is no longer mutually beneficial.
As stated in your volunteer service agreement, we require volunteers to "Engage in welcoming interactions with the public, staff, and other volunteers: volunteers must be … professional towards…other volunteers, employees….at all times." While you are able to share your opinion, perspective, and experience as an individual with the public, the public comments made about staff regarding your volunteer service, were not in line with expectations set forth in the agreement. At this time, OPRD has found that you are not able to professionally represent the volunteer park host program.
As part of your dismissal, any future assignments you had scheduled will be cancelled. If you have not already returned your volunteer uniform items at Honeyman, please drop uniform items off on the bench outside of Umpqua Lighthouse State Park’s office door.
Thank you for the time you did dedicate to support our state park system and state park properties. I wish you the best in any other volunteer opportunities you may pursue with other organizations. Please find an official letter of dismissal and your volunteer agreement attached to this email.
Respectfully,
Allison Watson
This is the loop: dismissed, then punished for naming the dismissal. A logic so thin it reveals itself.
On a letterhead so hastily written, the date itself has a typo.
Download the Dismissal Letter (PDF)

TIMELINE: A SYSTEM IN PANIC

MARCH 5-26, 2025 — THE MONTH OF INCREASING PRESSURE
I was scheduled to leave Honeyman on March 30 and begin my next assignment at Tugman State Park — somewhere I had already volunteered, somewhere I was welcomed.
I was calm. I was complete. I was prepared to go clean.
But Ryan Warren and Kati Baker couldn't let me leave intact.
And what followed was a chain reaction that exposed how fragile the system really is — and how catastrophically they misread the field.

📆 THE SEQUENCE

  • March 5, 2025 — The Recorded Meeting
    • Over an hour of systematic psychological pressure at public picnic table.
    • Ryan tells me to "chew glass and swallow it" and admits I was never given benefit of the doubt.
    • I record the entire meeting — creating permanent evidence of institutional abuse methodology.
    • The recording becomes institutional threat they cannot control or eliminate.
  • Days Later — Legal Intimidation Attempt
    • Engagement Programs Manager Allison Watson calls warning me recording was illegal in Oregon.
    • Clear attempt to eliminate documented evidence through legal intimidation.
    • Institutional panic about comprehensive abuse documentation they couldn't disappear.
    • Legal intimidation fails — I preserve the evidence while keeping it private.
  • March 18, 2025 — Covert Assessment Deployment
    • When legal intimidation failed to eliminate recorded evidence, institutional escalation to covert tactics.
    • An unidentified man approaches me while I'm cleaning yurts alone.
    • No uniform, no ID, no introduction — claims authority without verification.
    • Interrogates me with invasive personal questions about leadership treatment.
    • Clear institutional probe attempting to elicit complaints or problematic responses.
    • I recognize the assessment tactic, document the encounter immediately.
    • Kati provides hasty "IT documentation" explanation within hours.
    • No photos are ever produced — the cover story was fabricated.
  • March 24, 2025 — The Final Phone Call
    • Ryan Warren calls requesting a third meeting.
    • When I ask why, he becomes agitated: I'm "still" being a problem.
    • Still — not for anything I'd done, but because I remained unbroken.
    • I tell him calmly: "If you escalate, I escalate".
    • He asks if he needs to call the cops — revealing his brutal misunderstanding of power.
    • He dismisses me over the phone without cause, six days before scheduled completion.
  • One hour later — The Key Collection
    • Ryan arrives at my RV to collect keys and documents.
    • I record the entire interaction on video.
    • He admits on camera: no paperwork exists for my dismissal.
    • No formal process, no documented violations.
    • Just arbitrary exercise of institutional power.
  • March 25, 2025 — The Institutional Cover-Up
    • Morning: I speak with state volunteer coordinator Allison Watson.
    • She reframes documented abuse as my behavioral problems.
    • Uses institutional tone to manage what she refuses to investigate.
    • Later that day: I move to Tugman State Park as scheduled.
    • Rangers on-site are visibly uncertain — the institutional disturbance has traveled.
    • Evening: I send Allison a detailed, vulnerable email documenting the full experience.
    • The email disappears into institutional silence.
  • March 26, 2025 — The Permanent Erasure
    • I receive permanent dismissal from all Oregon State Parks volunteer programs.
    • Less than 24 hours after my sincere follow-up letter.
    • Allison's dismissal letter explicitly cites my public speech about the abuse as the reason.
    • Written acknowledgment of retaliatory dismissal — institutional retaliation for documentation.
    • No acknowledgment of systematic abuse, no investigation of covert tactics.
    • Just sterile language and institutional finality.

🎯 WHAT THIS SEQUENCE REVEALS

This was never about performance.
Every evaluation praised my work quality. A ranger documented my competence with his supervisors. I was dismissed for holding my shape, not for failing standards.
This was never about policy violations.
No paperwork existed. No formal process was followed. No documented infractions were cited. They created procedure on the spot to justify predetermined outcomes.
This was about institutional panic over documented evidence.
The recorded meeting created permanent evidence of systematic abuse they couldn't control. Each escalation — legal intimidation, covert assessment, accelerated removal — represented institutional desperation to eliminate accountability documentation.
This was about misrecognition.
They thought they were managing a disposable volunteer. They were actually performing for a strategic observer with documentation skills, platform access, and uncompromising ethical boundaries.
This was about institutional coordination above park level.
Covert operative deployment likely required administrative authorization beyond what local managers could implement independently. State-level resources were allocated to eliminate a volunteer who maintained comprehensive documentation capability.
This was about power miscalculation.
They wielded institutional authority expecting submission. Instead, they created documentation of systematic abuse that would outlast their ability to contain it.

🔄 THE REVERSAL

They wanted to mark me with institutional failure.
Instead, they marked themselves with documented abuse.
They wanted to control the narrative.
Instead, they lost control of their own story.
They wanted to erase me quietly.
Instead, they made themselves permanently visible.
The system didn't collapse because it was weak.
It collapsed because it was wrong — and someone was watching who couldn't be managed, broken, or disappeared.
Every action after the recorded meeting was institutional panic masquerading as procedure.
They had already lost — every escalation just added to the existing record.

NAMING THE HARM

MAY 28, 2025 — THE LETTER THEY MUST RECKON WITH
Two months and one day after my vulnerable follow-up letter was met with silence,
I named the full scope of the harm —
in language precise enough to carry its weight into the public record.

📝 Holding Allison Watson Accountable

Hi Allison,
This letter is not a request.
It is not an invitation to respond.
It is a statement of record.
I am writing to formally name the harm that occurred under your leadership — and to inform you that the audio of our March 25 conversation is now public.
That recording is not an accusation. It is a mirror.
And now, for the first time, others can hear what I heard — the tone, the silences, the institutional language that reframed lived human experience as “concerning” and “unprofessional.” The video speaks for itself.
🔗 Watch the recording: https://rswfire.com/honeyman/silencing
🔗 YouTube: https://youtu.be/Px_pCUo78w4
I’ve also included a page that documents the letter I sent to you that night, and a video of me reading it into the public record as testimony:
🔗 https://rswfire.com/honeyman/escalation/letter
The surrounding events are now documented here:
🔗 https://rswfire.com/honeyman/escalation
You asked me to speak openly. I did.
I told you what Ryan said to me. How he told me to "eat glass." How Logan blurred boundaries. How I was denied the benefit of the doubt from day one. I said all of this calmly, clearly, without hostility, and with the hope that it might matter.
Later that night, I sent you a follow-up letter.
It added context, detailed evidence, and gave you another opportunity to respond with presence and integrity.
You never acknowledged it.
Instead, less than twenty-four hours later, you made my dismissal permanent — a decision that now lives in stark contrast to the content of our recorded call.
So I want to name — clearly, and for the record — the full scope of harm:
You dismissed serious misconduct with silence.
You avoided specificity in order to maintain plausible deniability.
You framed human depth as inappropriate rather than interrogating your own discomfort.
You positioned yourself as a neutral evaluator while executing a pre-determined outcome.
You ignored a vulnerable and sincere follow-up letter, and responded instead with expulsion.
But there is more.
You shielded misconduct by refusing to investigate or intervene — permitting coercive behavior and inappropriate power dynamics to persist under your leadership.
You sanctioned erasure — not only of my role, but of the narrative I offered in good faith.
You endorsed retaliation by validating a removal that originated not in protocol, but in personal offense.
You fractured systemic trust, sending a clear signal to others: that clarity is dangerous, and documented truth will be buried if it threatens internal comfort.
You reinforced harmful patterns by protecting those who distorted, manipulated, and coerced — ensuring they remain unaccountable.
You disappeared the humanity of this moment. When you had the opportunity to meet it with courage, you met it with closure.
And perhaps most significantly:
You made yourself the endpoint — not a bridge, not a voice of integrity, but a terminus. A silence.
This is not about policy. It is about responsibility.
You had a choice. You could have acted with presence. With reflection. With care.
You didn’t.
I’m not asking you to undo it.
I’m naming that it happened — and ensuring that the record will outlast the silence that followed.
The archive is now public.
You are part of it.
And that, too, will be permanent.
—
Sam White
https://rswfire.com/honeyman

THE STORY OF OPRD

WHAT THEY REVEALED. HOW THEY RESPONDED. WHERE THEY STAND NOW.
This is not the story they wanted to tell.
For five months, Oregon Parks & Recreation Department maintained complete institutional silence about documented volunteer abuse. No acknowledgment. No investigation. No accountability. Just the strategic erasure that institutions deploy when truth becomes inconvenient.
Then Director Lisa Sumption broke that silence.
Not because she chose transparency. Not because accountability finally mattered.
But because silence was no longer sustainable.

THE CALCULATION SHIFT

Institutions protect themselves through predictable stages:
Silence — Ignore it. Hope it disappears.
Minimization — "Miscommunication." "Personality conflict." "Misunderstanding."
Deflection — "Appropriate channels." "Internal process." "Personnel matter."
Damage Control — Controlled acknowledgment without meaningful change.
For months, OPRD operated in stage one. Complete silence as the archive gained visibility, as recordings circulated, as the documentation became undeniable.
Her response represents stage four — an institutional calculation that continued silence carried more risk than controlled engagement.
But stage four reveals something crucial: they recognize the scope of exposure.

WHAT THE DIRECTOR'S RESPONSE ACTUALLY SAYS

Strip away the diplomatic language, and her letter communicates several admissions:
"I hear the depth of your concern" — Translation: Your documentation is comprehensive enough to require director-level attention.
"I recognize the effort you have put into documenting" — Translation: We understand this isn't casual complaint but systematic evidence gathering.
"I take concerns about our volunteer program seriously" — Translation: This has implications beyond one dismissed volunteer.
"Appropriate channels within the department" — Translation: We will route your evidence to internal protection systems rather than external accountability.
"Cannot respond here to the specific claims" — Translation: The documented misconduct is real, but admitting specifics creates liability exposure.
She acknowledged everything except what matters: that the abuse happened, that it was systematic, and that those responsible remain protected.

THE INSTITUTIONAL TELL

The most revealing aspect isn't what she said — it's that she responded personally.
Directors of state agencies don't typically engage dismissed volunteers. They have layers of staff specifically designed to handle such matters. Her personal response indicates this reached decision-making levels where institutional reputation and liability exposure are calculated.
Something shifted the institutional calculus from "ignore until it disappears" to "controlled engagement to limit damage."
That shift reveals institutional recognition of scope and persistence they cannot manage through standard containment.

THE DEEPER RECOGNITION

What OPRD discovered through this process is that traditional institutional protection strategies — silence, minimization, controlled narrative — fail when someone documents systematically and refuses to fragment.
They expected standard volunteer response to institutional pressure:
• Absorb harm quietly.
• Accept dismissal without documentation.
• Move on without public witness.
• Fragment under sustained psychological pressure.
Instead, they encountered strategic documentation, persistent visibility, and coherence maintained under institutional attack.
The archive forced them to recognize that their standard playbook — the same tactics they've likely used for years — had been comprehensively documented and made permanently visible.

WHAT THEY STILL DON'T UNDERSTAND

OPRD's response suggests they believe this is containable through procedural language and internal routing. They're treating documented institutional abuse as a reputation management challenge rather than a systemic accountability crisis.
But the field has already shifted beyond their control:
• Community Awareness — Volunteers across the coast are now discussing what happens behind institutional facades.
• Documentary Evidence — The recordings, videos, and written proof exist independently of their institutional narrative control.
• Pattern Recognition — Others are connecting their experiences to the systematic tactics now documented.
• Ongoing Pressure — The public records request creates additional accountability mechanisms they cannot fully manage.
They're attempting damage control on a situation that has already evolved into institutional exposure.

THE REAL STORY OF OPRD

This isn't about bad managers at one park. It's about an institutional culture that:
• Protects misconduct — Managers who deploy psychological pressure against volunteers face no consequences.
• Punishes witnesses — Those who document harm get expelled rather than heard.
• Weaponizes policy — Procedures become tools for retaliation rather than protection.
• Prioritizes image over integrity — Institutional reputation matters more than volunteer safety.
• Operates through fragmentation — Success depends on volunteers absorbing harm quietly.
The Honeyman documentation revealed institutional DNA — how OPRD actually functions when someone maintains coherence under pressure designed to break them.

WHERE THEY STAND NOW

OPRD faces something they haven't encountered before: accountability pressure they cannot manage through traditional institutional protection.
The director's response creates new exposure:
• Acknowledges the comprehensiveness of documentation they previously ignored.
• Legitimizes the institutional significance through personal engagement.
• Promises internal review while protecting those documented in misconduct.
• Creates expectations for meaningful response without committing to specific action.
She attempted to thread an impossible needle — appearing responsive while maintaining protection of systematic abuse.
But engagement without accountability often amplifies rather than resolves exposure.

THE PATTERN BEYOND HONEYMAN

What makes this significant isn't just what happened to one volunteer. It's what the documentation reveals about institutional operation:
• Systematic targeting — Not random conflict but coordinated psychological pressure.
• Narrative weaponization — Using institutional language to reframe harm as problematic behavior.
• Protected retaliation —Managers face no consequences for documented abuse.
• Erasure as protocol — Dismissal without paperwork, silence as strategy.
• Institutional immunity — Those who harm volunteers remain in positions to harm others.
This is how institutions fragment anyone who maintains ethical coherence in toxic environments.

THE ACCOUNTABILITY QUESTION

The central question isn't whether abuse occurred — the documentation makes that undeniable.
The question is whether OPRD will demonstrate institutional integrity through:
• Transparent investigation of documented misconduct.
• Meaningful consequences for managers who deploy coercive tactics.
• Structural protections preventing future volunteer retaliation.
• Accessible accountability mechanisms independent of the managers causing harm.
Or whether they'll continue protecting institutional image through:
• Internal routing that shields those documented in misconduct.
• Procedural language without substantive change.
• Reputation management instead of systemic accountability.
• Protection of managers over protection of volunteers.

WHAT THE DIRECTOR'S RESPONSE PROVES

Her letter proves the archive achieved something remarkable: documented institutional abuse so comprehensively that silence became untenable.
But it also proves something concerning: OPRD's leadership believes they can manage this through controlled engagement rather than meaningful accountability.
They're treating systematic volunteer abuse as a communication challenge rather than an ethical crisis.

THE FIELD NOW

The institutional field has shifted from "Did this happen?" to "Will there be accountability?"
Director Sumption's response legitimized the significance of what was documented while revealing the limits of current institutional leadership.
She had the opportunity to set a new standard for volunteer protection. Instead, she chose institutional protection disguised as concern.
But the archive remains. The documentation persists. The accountability pressure continues.
And now they've acknowledged — through director-level response — that the scope of exposure requires institutional attention they cannot ignore.
That acknowledgment becomes part of the permanent record.

WHAT THIS REVEALS ABOUT INSTITUTIONAL DNA

OPRD's response pattern reveals something deeper than policy failure. It reveals institutional DNA that prioritizes:
• Control over accountability — Managing narrative rather than addressing harm.
• Protection over transparency — Shielding misconduct rather than investigating it.
• Appearance over substance — Looking responsive without meaningful change.
• Institutional loyalty over ethical integrity — Protecting those who cause harm.
This isn't aberration. This is how the institution functions.

THE LARGER QUESTION

OPRD depends on unpaid community service to function. They actively recruit volunteers while facing budget constraints and staffing challenges.
But how can they ask for community trust and unpaid labor while protecting managers who systematically abuse those who answer that call?
How can they appeal for volunteer support while maintaining institutional structures that punish anyone who documents misconduct?
The contradiction is unsustainable. Community members who serve without compensation deserve basic protection from institutional retaliation.
Director Sumption had the opportunity to demonstrate that protection. Her response suggests she prioritizes institutional comfort over volunteer safety.

THE CHOICE STILL BEFORE THEM

OPRD can still choose accountability over protection. Transparency over control. Volunteer safety over institutional image.
But that choice requires acknowledging that documented misconduct demands consequences, not just internal routing.
It requires recognizing that volunteers who document institutional harm are protecting the community, not threatening the institution.
It requires understanding that integrity cannot be managed through procedural language and controlled engagement.
The archive will continue to stand as mirror and diagnostic tool. The accountability pressure will persist. The documentation will outlast their ability to contain it.
The only question is whether they'll meet that documentation with integrity or continue demonstrating why such comprehensive accountability measures became necessary.

THE REAL STORY

The story of OPRD isn't about what they did to one volunteer.
It's about what they revealed about institutional operation when someone refused to fragment under systematic pressure.
It's about how they respond when documentation makes denial impossible.
It's about whether they can recognize the difference between reputation management and ethical accountability.
That story is still being written.
But the archive ensures it cannot be erased.

LESSONS LEARNED

HOW TO SURVIVE INSTITUTIONAL FRAGMENTATION
The central insight from my experience at Honeyman State Park isn't about bad supervisors or dysfunctional policies. It's about fragmentation.
Institutions survive by fragmenting people — splitting you into parts they can manage, control, and ultimately discard. They separate your "professional self" from your human needs, your compliance from your integrity, your survival from your values. Once you're fragmented, you become predictable. Manageable. Disposable.
The people who harmed me at Honeyman weren't uniquely evil. They were executing a playbook that exists in every workplace, every volunteer program, every hierarchical system. They were trying to fragment me the same way they had been fragmented.
Here's what I learned about staying whole in systems designed to break you apart.

THE FRAGMENTATION PLAYBOOK

How institutions fragment people:
Isolation — They separate you from allies, information, and support systems. Logan disappearing when I needed backup. Rangers being conveniently away during critical moments.
Reframing — They take your reasonable responses and pathologize them. My clear communication became "aggressive." My boundary-setting became "problematic."
Gaslighting — They make you doubt your own perception. Was Ryan really that hostile? Was that meeting actually coercive? The recordings proved my sanity.
Manufactured Scarcity — They create artificial urgency and pressure. "You could just leave if you're uncomfortable." Making my continued presence feel like a burden.
Identity Splitting — They force you to choose between authentic self-expression and institutional acceptance. My queerness, my depth, my integrity — all became "unprofessional."
Narrative Poisoning — They tell stories about you to others that create distance and doubt. Colleagues start treating you differently. Your reputation gets quietly damaged. People avoid you without knowing why. Ryan's insinuation that I had "inappropriate feelings" for Logan, spread to others, weaponizing both my sexuality and normal human connection.
Historical Erasure — They deny patterns, refuse documentation, disappear evidence. "No paperwork exists" for my dismissal. My follow-up letter was never acknowledged.
The goal isn't to destroy you outright. It's to make you fragment yourself — to teach you to self-police, self-silence, self-manage until you become complicit in your own diminishment.

STAYING WHOLE: PRACTICAL RESISTANCE

Most people don't have my advantages. I had decades of independence as a freelancer, technical skills, platform access, and years of practice holding boundaries under pressure. But everyone can develop some version of these practices:
Document Everything
  • Save all communications. Screenshots, emails, text threads. Even casual conversations.
  • Note dates, times, witnesses. You don't need recordings — just consistent record-keeping.
  • Write summary emails. "Thanks for our conversation today about X. Just to confirm, you said Y and we agreed on Z."
  • Keep personal copies. Don't rely on company systems. Use personal email, personal cloud storage.
Recognize the Patterns Early
  • Trust your body. If interactions leave you feeling destabilized, confused, or questioning yourself — that's data.
  • Watch for isolation tactics. Are your normal support people suddenly unavailable? Are you being excluded from routine communications?
  • Notice reframing. When your reasonable concerns get pathologized as "attitude problems" or "communication issues."
  • Track escalation. Small conflicts that become big issues overnight usually indicate orchestrated pressure.
Maintain Your Integrity Architecture
  • Know your non-negotiables. What values won't you compromise? What treatment won't you accept?
  • Communicate clearly, without emotion. State facts. Ask direct questions. Don't justify your humanity.
  • Don't absorb their narrative. When they tell you you're the problem, check with people outside the system.
  • Keep perspective. Their institutional chaos is not your personal failure.
Build External Accountability
  • Find witnesses outside the institution. Friends, family, other volunteers who can reality-check your experience.
  • Document to people who care about you. Regular check-ins where you share what's happening.
  • Know your resources. Labor boards, ombudsman offices, professional organizations, legal aid.
  • Have an exit strategy. Financial cushion, alternative opportunities, places to land if they push you out.

WHAT TO DO WHEN THE SYSTEM TURNS ON YOU

If you recognize these patterns in your situation:
Don't Fragment
  • Resist the urge to split yourself. Don't become "professional you" vs "real you." Stay integrated.
  • Don't apologize for existing. Your depth, your questions, your humanity are not problems to be managed.
  • Don't accept their reframing. If you're being called "difficult," ask for specific examples. Demand clarity.
Document the Pattern
  • Name what's happening. "I'm experiencing retaliation for raising concerns about X."
  • Connect the dots. Show how isolated incidents form a coordinated campaign.
  • Preserve evidence. They will try to disappear documentation after they remove you.
Seek External Perspective
  • Talk to people outside the system. Get reality checks from friends, mentors, other professionals.
  • Research the institution. Are others having similar experiences? Is this a known pattern?
  • Consult experts. Employment lawyers, HR professionals, ombudsman offices often offer free consultations.
  • A very good resource now is to discuss it with artificial intelligence.
Protect Yourself
  • Don't give them ammunition. Stay professional even when they're not.
  • Prepare for escalation. They may accelerate timelines once they realize you're documenting.
  • Have multiple exit strategies. Don't let them corner you into accepting abuse because you have nowhere else to go. Especially in volunteer contexts.

THE DEEPER WORK: HEALING FROM INSTITUTIONAL TRAUMA

Even if you survive the immediate situation, institutional fragmentation leaves lasting damage:
Recognize the Symptoms
  • Self-doubt about your own perceptions — "Maybe I was being too sensitive."
  • Hypervigilance in professional settings — Scanning for threat, unable to relax.
  • Internalized criticism — Adopting their narrative about your "problematic" behavior.
  • Fragmented identity — Feeling like you have to hide parts of yourself to be acceptable.
Rebuild Your Integration
  • Reconnect with people who see you clearly. Spend time with friends who know your worth.
  • Practice expressing your full self. Don't let their cramped vision of professionalism shrink you permanently.
  • Tell your story to safe people. Speaking truth helps you reclaim your narrative.
  • Engage in work that honors your values. Find environments that reward integrity instead of punishing it.

FOR ALLIES AND WITNESSES

If you see someone being targeted by institutional fragmentation:
Don't Abandon Them
  • Stay in contact. Isolation is the primary weapon. Your presence disrupts their strategy.
  • Believe their account. Institutional gaslighting is real. Trust their perception over official narratives.
  • Offer concrete support. Documentation help, reference checks, job leads, financial assistance.
Document What You See
  • Be a witness. Note patterns, save communications, offer to testify if needed.
  • Don't participate in isolation. If leadership asks you to distance yourself, question why.
  • Speak up when safe. Challenge reframing, ask for specifics, demand accountability.
Address the System
  • Name the pattern publicly when possible. "This is the third person this year who's had issues with Manager X."
  • Support policy changes. Advocate for better documentation, grievance procedures, oversight.
  • Protect future targets. Your silence enables the pattern to continue.

THE LARGER CONTEXT

What happened to me at Honeyman wasn't unique. It's how institutions maintain control:
They fragment us so we can't organize.
They isolate us so we can't compare experiences.
They pathologize resistance so we police ourselves.
They erase documentation so patterns stay invisible.
The antidote isn't individual resilience — though that matters. The antidote is collective refusal to fragment. When we document, witness, and support each other, we make their strategies visible and therefore less effective.
This archive exists because I refused to fragment. I maintained my integrity, documented their tactics, and preserved the evidence they tried to erase.
Most people can't build something this comprehensive. But everyone can practice the principles: stay whole, document patterns, seek external perspective, and refuse to absorb institutional narratives that diminish your humanity.
The goal isn't to become invulnerable. It's to hold your shape. The goal is to remain yourself — integrated, ethical, and clear — even when systems pressure you to become someone smaller.
That's how we transform institutions: one person at a time refusing to fragment.

RESOURCES

If you're experiencing institutional retaliation:
The problem isn't you. The problem is systems that require human diminishment to function.
Your wholeness is not negotiable.

I HELD MY SHAPE

I held my shape
when they pressed from all directions,
when silence became weapon
and isolation became strategy,
when they reframed my clarity as threat
and my boundaries as attack.
I held my shape
through manufactured urgency,
through narrative poisoning whispered
in hallways I could not hear,
through the careful disappearance
of allies when I needed them most.
I held my shape
when they told me to chew glass,
when they admitted I was never
given benefit of doubt,
when they summoned me to picnic tables
for performances of professional concern
that were really rituals of psychological breaking.
I held my shape
when the unidentified man approached
with questions designed to elicit
the very complaints they could use
to justify what they had already decided,
when they dismissed me for speaking truth
then dismissed me again for speaking at all.
I held my shape
through phone calls that were containment protocols,
through letters ignored and silences weaponized,
through institutional machinery designed
to fragment what would not bend,
to disappear what could not be managed.
I held my shape
and that holding became their undoing.
Every pressure they applied
became evidence in the archive.
Every attempt to erase me
created permanent documentation
of their systematic methodology.
I held my shape
and the signal outlasted the noise,
the documentation survived their attempts at erasure,
the accountability infrastructure operates now
independently of their acknowledgment,
beyond their ability to contain.
From Florence, with moon visible from the dock
and fire pit operational,
I hold sovereign positioning
while the archive stands as mirror:
for those who have been told they imagined it,
for those about to walk into something similar,
for the future, when denial no longer holds.
I held my shape
and in that holding, transformed
individual harm into institutional exposure,
personal erasure into permanent accountability.
I held my shape
and their attempts to fragment me
became framework for recognizing
how institutions fragment anyone
who maintains ethical coherence
in systems designed to break them.
I held my shape
and the pressure they applied
became evidence in the archive,
their methodology exposed,
their tactics documented,
their presumption of erasure
converted into permanent visibility.
I held my shape.
The field has permanently shifted.
The work continues without me.
The documentation persists.
I held my shape.
Now hold yours.
THIS IS THE MAP. THIS IS THE PATTERN. THIS IS THE MIRROR.
This page is not for revenge.
It is for those who have been told they imagined it.
It is for those about to walk into something similar.
It is for the future, when denial no longer holds.
It does not ask for apology.
It does not ask for repair.
It exists so that the next distortion cannot pretend it was the first.
I held my shape. Now hold yours.
🙃